Welcome to being Sayaka Miki! You seem to have met the requisite SUFFERING requirement to be a Puella Magi already, so it looks like you're all clear to go.
As a Sayaka, you will be treated to the following:
A magical connection with a pretty gem
, that slowly gets a little darker every day!
A strange feeling of ethereal 'power,' tied to that gem - if you pull on it, you can access magic, and do amazing things! Pretty much anything that you want! But if you use it, that gem gets darker... if it goes all the way black, something strange might happen. It seems like the blacker it gets, the more tired you are...
A special other form
for when you use magic! How cool!
Auto-healing! Stubbed your toe? Good as new! Spear to the stomach? Also healed!
Speaking of spears to the stomach, nothing really seems to hurt as much as it should now...
Food seems a little duller, too.
A trunk full of all this stuff
Poorly hidden notes! (link to these is a WIP - since is the smaller first part,
and the ridiculously large indepth notes are forthcoming! The notes preceding by "-" are in a different handwriting from Sayaka's, and as Kidou's memories blend into hers, he might recall that it was Jin who helped write them. The links are all actual urls written down from the network.)
Eventually, as things become more muddled, you will also get.... MEMORIES and PERSONALITY alterations!
You'll find you have a strange draw to classical - and, specifically, violin music...
You feel like something special was coming up soon... As the bleed-over gets worse, you'll realize it's
Sayaka's birthday on the 20th!
There is this boy, named Kyousuke... there's a deep need to protect him, but things don't feel as clear cut as that. Some kind of feeling of heartache, whenever the thought of him comes up... and a confusion over what to even say to him, after something Big went awry.
You feel like there are Injustices in the world that need to be righted - but the aspects of these injustices are blurred and swayed heavily by emotion. Things aren't in grays in your mind now - it's either black or white, something is always either good at heart or bad to the core. And you tend to assume there is Badness in your own motivations, more often than not - when you can feel like you're not doing something for your own gain at all, then you don't feel guilty.
Where before you may have disliked Jason, now that feeling has upgraded to Loathing
. Pure, unadulterated loathing. In your chess-match view of the world, he is the King that you, the white Knight, desperately want to put into check. Permanently.
Jin is a really cool guy and you would literally
punch a star for him. Minato is also cool, but you would maybe just punch a moon on his behalf. There's a big difference okay. Ven and Roxas are your awesome vandal friends, and there is a huge visceral dislike for Lina freakin' Inverse. Your other two roommates are fine, tho.
You will also potentially get vivid flashbacks of a bunch of fights from canon because
youtube is easy to link
those are all quite vivid memories for Sayaka herself! I would recommend being set off by stimuli similar to the situation, like. "Oh look a rose- GETRUD FIGHT," or "Oh look a cake - CHARLOTTE I REMEMBER YOU"
In chronological order, here they are - whether or not to all be recalled is at the player's leisure: Mami versus Getrud
, to which Sayaka was just a spectator normie. Overarching feeling is "WOW AWESOME~!"Mami versus Charlotte
! Spectating again. Throughout this memory there is a growing dread - until Bad Things come to... a head.
There is no handy-dandy video of the HN Elly fight to link, so suffice to say she fought a TV once
to save her bff Madoka from certain death.
And then Sayaka fought this chick
and got her ass kicked, but there's a surprising lack of retrospective animosity there.Sayaka versus Elsa Maria
- Sayaka's attitude towards this memory is complex. She regrets sinking into a state like that back home, but can sharply understand why she felt like that and agrees with what her past self was saying.