BODY SWAP NOTES~*~
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beknightedheroine Welcome to being Sayaka Miki! You seem to have met the requisite SUFFERING requirement to be a Puella Magi already, so it looks like you're all clear to go.
As a Sayaka, you will be treated to the following:
A magical connection with a pretty gem, that slowly gets a little darker every day!
A strange feeling of ethereal 'power,' tied to that gem - if you pull on it, you can access magic, and do amazing things! Pretty much anything that you want! But if you use it, that gem gets darker... if it goes all the way black, something strange might happen. It seems like the blacker it gets, the more tired you are...
A special other form for when you use magic! How cool!
Auto-healing! Stubbed your toe? Good as new! Spear to the stomach? Also healed!
Speaking of spears to the stomach, nothing really seems to hurt as much as it should now...
Food seems a little duller, too.
A trunk full of all this stuff!
Poorly hidden notes! (link to these is a WIP - since is the smaller first part, and the ridiculously large indepth notes are forthcoming! The notes preceding by "-" are in a different handwriting from Sayaka's, and as Kidou's memories blend into hers, he might recall that it was Jin who helped write them. The links are all actual urls written down from the network.)
Eventually, as things become more muddled, you will also get.... MEMORIES and PERSONALITY alterations!
You'll find you have a strange draw to classical - and, specifically, violin music...
You feel like something special was coming up soon... As the bleed-over gets worse, you'll realize it's your Sayaka's birthday on the 20th!
There is this boy, named Kyousuke... there's a deep need to protect him, but things don't feel as clear cut as that. Some kind of feeling of heartache, whenever the thought of him comes up... and a confusion over what to even say to him, after something Big went awry.
You feel like there are Injustices in the world that need to be righted - but the aspects of these injustices are blurred and swayed heavily by emotion. Things aren't in grays in your mind now - it's either black or white, something is always either good at heart or bad to the core. And you tend to assume there is Badness in your own motivations, more often than not - when you can feel like you're not doing something for your own gain at all, then you don't feel guilty.
Where before you may have disliked Jason, now that feeling has upgraded to Loathing. Pure, unadulterated loathing. In your chess-match view of the world, he is the King that you, the white Knight, desperately want to put into check. Permanently.
Jin is a really cool guy and you would literally punch a star for him. Minato is also cool, but you would maybe just punch a moon on his behalf. There's a big difference okay. Ven and Roxas are your awesome vandal friends, and there is a huge visceral dislike for Lina freakin' Inverse. Your other two roommates are fine, tho.
You will also potentially get vivid flashbacks of a bunch of fights from canon because youtube is easy to link those are all quite vivid memories for Sayaka herself! I would recommend being set off by stimuli similar to the situation, like. "Oh look a rose- GETRUD FIGHT," or "Oh look a cake - CHARLOTTE I REMEMBER YOU"
In chronological order, here they are - whether or not to all be recalled is at the player's leisure:
Mami versus Getrud, to which Sayaka was just a spectator normie. Overarching feeling is "WOW AWESOME~!"
Mami versus Charlotte! Spectating again. Throughout this memory there is a growing dread - until Bad Things come to... a head.
There is no handy-dandy video of the HN Elly fight to link, so suffice to say she fought a TV once to save her bff Madoka from certain death.
And then Sayaka fought this chick and got her ass kicked, but there's a surprising lack of retrospective animosity there.
Sayaka versus Elsa Maria - Sayaka's attitude towards this memory is complex. She regrets sinking into a state like that back home, but can sharply understand why she felt like that and agrees with what her past self was saying.
As a Sayaka, you will be treated to the following:
A magical connection with a pretty gem, that slowly gets a little darker every day!
A strange feeling of ethereal 'power,' tied to that gem - if you pull on it, you can access magic, and do amazing things! Pretty much anything that you want! But if you use it, that gem gets darker... if it goes all the way black, something strange might happen. It seems like the blacker it gets, the more tired you are...
A special other form for when you use magic! How cool!
Auto-healing! Stubbed your toe? Good as new! Spear to the stomach? Also healed!
Speaking of spears to the stomach, nothing really seems to hurt as much as it should now...
Food seems a little duller, too.
A trunk full of all this stuff!
Poorly hidden notes! (link to these is a WIP - since is the smaller first part, and the ridiculously large indepth notes are forthcoming! The notes preceding by "-" are in a different handwriting from Sayaka's, and as Kidou's memories blend into hers, he might recall that it was Jin who helped write them. The links are all actual urls written down from the network.)
Eventually, as things become more muddled, you will also get.... MEMORIES and PERSONALITY alterations!
You'll find you have a strange draw to classical - and, specifically, violin music...
You feel like something special was coming up soon... As the bleed-over gets worse, you'll realize it's
There is this boy, named Kyousuke... there's a deep need to protect him, but things don't feel as clear cut as that. Some kind of feeling of heartache, whenever the thought of him comes up... and a confusion over what to even say to him, after something Big went awry.
You feel like there are Injustices in the world that need to be righted - but the aspects of these injustices are blurred and swayed heavily by emotion. Things aren't in grays in your mind now - it's either black or white, something is always either good at heart or bad to the core. And you tend to assume there is Badness in your own motivations, more often than not - when you can feel like you're not doing something for your own gain at all, then you don't feel guilty.
Where before you may have disliked Jason, now that feeling has upgraded to Loathing. Pure, unadulterated loathing. In your chess-match view of the world, he is the King that you, the white Knight, desperately want to put into check. Permanently.
Jin is a really cool guy and you would literally punch a star for him. Minato is also cool, but you would maybe just punch a moon on his behalf. There's a big difference okay. Ven and Roxas are your awesome vandal friends, and there is a huge visceral dislike for Lina freakin' Inverse. Your other two roommates are fine, tho.
You will also potentially get vivid flashbacks of a bunch of fights from canon because
In chronological order, here they are - whether or not to all be recalled is at the player's leisure:
Mami versus Getrud, to which Sayaka was just a spectator normie. Overarching feeling is "WOW AWESOME~!"
Mami versus Charlotte! Spectating again. Throughout this memory there is a growing dread - until Bad Things come to... a head.
There is no handy-dandy video of the HN Elly fight to link, so suffice to say she fought a TV once to save her bff Madoka from certain death.
And then Sayaka fought this chick and got her ass kicked, but there's a surprising lack of retrospective animosity there.
Sayaka versus Elsa Maria - Sayaka's attitude towards this memory is complex. She regrets sinking into a state like that back home, but can sharply understand why she felt like that and agrees with what her past self was saying.
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Date: 2012-09-17 02:02 am (UTC)NOTE ADDENDUMS
Date: 2012-09-17 04:59 am (UTC)We've already covered Kyousuke - though Kidou has a chance of figuring out amidst Sayaka's befuddled feelings that she is in ridiculous, over the top, pining 15 year old love with the dude. If he would pick up on that sort of thing.
Madoka has been her best friend since childhood, though Sayaka's internally imposed strain on their relationship - she can't stand the idea that this Madoka was at another place as bad the tower before coming here, and that it's obviously hurt her a lot and that she just can't do anything about it...
Considering there was a different Sayaka at facility and she knows it, Sayaka also feels like if she hangs out around Madoka too much, she'd be bringing up painful memories of that other Sayaka.
Mami is someone Sayaka idolizes and idealizes. She represents a world where things didn't go Wrong, unlike the wrong Sayaka sees inherent in her own timeline. Sayaka wants to protect her and keep the tower from ruining that perceived purity...! She's still her mentor, though.. Sayaka closes herself off a lot, but it's Mami who hugged her when the tower nearly first brought her to cry, and it was Mami who was the only person to stay around from some version of home for a long time.
Homura is Complicated. Sayaka's old impression of her as this threatening and untrustworthy person has heartily crumbled - she's still rather standoffish to the girl on principal, but it's nearly in a habitual way rather than purposefully. She doesn't care about being the 'wrong' Sayaka around Homura, since they weren't any sort of close back home.
Sayaka holds no hard feelings to Kyouko, but that's pretty much a given, especially with all the time she's had to mull outside of cnaon. She'd actually like to see Kyouko more, though is a little wary on principal because of what she knows - that a different Kyouko in the past was along for the ride when Sayaka became a Witch back home, so what's this one's opinion on that...? It's a big question mark..
As for Kyuubey, she is going to punch a hole through all of the hims if she ends up meeting any 'freshly minted' Puella Magi (not that those can actually happen in the tower, but she doesn't know that). She's not immediately violent to him on sight, though, but she is inclined to be antagonistic.
CAN'T HOLD ALL THESE AWFUL FEELINGSSS
Date: 2012-09-17 05:00 am (UTC)Encountering (the bodies or minds of) castmates at this point will just make this feeling worse.
CROSS CANON CR
Date: 2012-09-18 09:50 pm (UTC)"Jin is a really cool guy and you would literally punch a star for him. Minato is also cool, but you would maybe just punch a moon on his behalf. There's a big difference okay. Ven and Roxas are your awesome vandal friends, and there is a huge visceral dislike for Lina freakin' Inverse. Your other roommates is fine, tho - Feferi is a sweetie."
Anyway other people!
Romeo commands a ton of respect from Sayaka, due to all that he's been through and how he's still able to be this sunny kid who runs a bitty club where he gives everyone bowls of ice cream, and stuff like that. He's a good person and been able to stay a good person, in a place like this...!
Ken is that serious younger friend that Sayaka wants to get to come out of his serious shell more (and has succeeded with some!!)
and i will add more if the thought comes to me!!
INGAME MEMORIES
Date: 2012-09-18 11:23 pm (UTC)-> That strange, half-lucid first month or so she spent in the tower. Sayaka remembers being very aimless, very frustrated, and very easily upset by everything back then. Back then, she often dispatched monsters of the tower until she felt too tired to properly hold a sword - which retrospectively, didn't take that long. Until she realized it didn't really do anything and became even more aimless.
There's also a vivid memory of Taiki trapped in a cupboard, drowning in blood. It is upsetting.
->The collar swap event, wherein she met Jin!
->It's not tied to a specific time or place, but this mermaid is another clear image in her mind.. how weird.
->Meeting Roxas! aka fuck yeah skateboarding on books, aka holy shit a positive memory
->Tearing up a poster in the art gallery.
->The events of the labyrinth are clearly from that time, but not actually remembered as things that happened - more like overwhelmingly horrible feelings - what Sayaka does clearly remember are the dreams she had.
->The first two threads on this post, up until she drops her soul gem and it breaks. She doesn't remember anything else that happened that day, because she died right about then.
->SAD TRIO TIMES aka ven and sayaka and roxas have a hugpile
Linking to all of infighting would take forever to read and to do so here's a summary:
Sayaka checks up on freakin' everyone by shouting into the walls, makes a bet with Jin to punch Jason, and then things start going wrong. Sayaka's altered herself, Jin is slowly turned into a logically minded robot. Mami.. Mami gets hurt at all, and Sayaka talks things over with a mysterious boy who she figures isn't really there - and wonders that... if someone were to die here, would they wake up back in the normal tower...?
During the week they were required to run treadmills, Sayaka snaps - and wrecks hers. As a punishment, she's hung by violin strings in her cell - she kind of, just took a mental vacation when that happened. She was cut down from the strings at the end of week two, and then, for week three...
WILL BE CONTINUED IN THE NEXT COMMENT
INGAME MEMORIES
Date: 2012-09-18 11:41 pm (UTC)Then in week three... Jason strung everyone together by tendrils, with Sayaka at the center. It sucked, but mofo got hurt and disqualified!!
Week four Sayaka spent mentally celebrating and being annoyed at being turned into a walking music box.
MORE CANON MEMORIES sob im so slow
Date: 2012-09-19 08:22 pm (UTC)->Making her wish to Kyuubey, to heal Kyousuke's crippled hand and become a magical girl. Detailed in an attached comment.
->Stained glass windows, charred wood, a stolen bag full of apples - and another magical girl imploring her that living selfishly is the only way to be safe. Sayaka refused Kyouko's philosophy, and left her alone in that burned-out church.
->Crying in Madoka's arms, because - she can't dare approach the boy she loves now! She's not even human now, she's a zombie, so how could she ever ask him to hug or, or kiss her--
WISH GET
Date: 2012-09-19 08:23 pm (UTC)Things take a turn for the worse from there. Kyousuke used to be a musician - but with his hand out of commission, that's a thing of the past. In anguish, he smashes the CD player with his damaged hand, injuring himself and prompting Sayaka to come to a decision. She insists there's got to be some sort of way to help him. Kyousuke insists there isn't - it would take a miracle.
"Miracles and magic do exist!"
As soon as Sayaka says that, Kyuubey, appears in the windowsill from thin air.
Sayaka flees to the garden on the roof of the hospital, where Kyuubey meets her - she asks if he can really grant wishes, and he says not to worry. Her wish is easy to grant, as long as she's ready. She gives the affirmative, at which point the garden takes on an unearthly aura, as obvious magic is at work.
The creature reaches toward her chest, where a blue light begins to form. Sayaka is in obvious pain from the process. The light rises away from her, taking on a egg-like shape, and Kyuubey tells her to accept this, her destiny. Sayaka reaches up to take it - by now, it's properly become her soul gem.